I am 28 years old for another month at least. I am somewhat in fear of my 29th birthday it is my last year in my twenties and I feel as if I have accomplished so little with my life. Don't get me wrong I am not a poor me sort of person I do realize and acknowledge what I do have. I have a wonderful husband who loves in spite of my bullshit. I have a beautiful son who is and always will be my greatest accomplishment. I have a wonderful loving family and great in-laws. What I have not accomplished is a discovering of self that I think occurs for most people in their twenties. That is what this blogging journey is about for me , keeping track of the last year in my twenties and finding out Who I Am.
This is what I know about myself so far. I have an immense capacity for love, I love easily and I have loved often. I am a realistic optimist. I am a great mother and I am a good wife. I hate to be responsible. I am not indecisive. I know what I want and what I believe but I don't want to argue about it so I let others make the decisions. I hate to fail so much so that I am afraid to try anything new. I find it incredibly difficult to tell people no even if I am being taken advantage of. I am a loyal friend I will always stand by you. I believe in soul mates and destiny and chaos. The think that I have just come to know about myself is that I have lost control of my life I have become a passenger instead of a participant.
That is about to change!
like you... i have the same fear about '29'. sigh.......
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